Babies first bath was a success!
(Its a touch blurry but you cant expect too much from a phone...)
This perfectly sums up the start of my new year.

lovelove.

♥♥

I'm a busy girl lately, and I've been neglectful.
Of a lot of things.
I sincerely apologize...
To everyone who has been affected by this- including myself.
lovelove.

You've got your lights turned so they can see you
The very best of what you've got to offer
Tell them what your hands were made for
Tell them who your mouth was made for

You've got your profits and your mathematicians
The vocal fuel of a generation
Tell me what my hands were made for
Tell me who my mouth was made for

And please don't be mad at me
You'll get what you ask for
Come on come on come on

So very close to what you had expected
It makes it hard to keep my head up level
Tell me I'm what your hands were made for
Tell me I'm who your mouth was made for

And if you come down on me
Well you'll get what you ask for
Come on come on come on

I, I want to get myself back
High, I want to get myself back.
Tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight.
And all of the things that you promised me that you'd be
now your hands are tired.
But I was nice, yeah I was nice, but I, I give my life
for one night, one night, one night.

I will not give up, I will not give up, I will not give up.
what do you know?
♥♥

My life is spinning into some weird shit right.
Surprisingly its been fairly easy to stay calm and level headed recently.
Which is totally unlike myself.

I really want some sushi but there isn't anyone who will get some with me today...
Boo-hiss.

lovelove.

I'm missing...

(artwork credit- Rik Lee... who's work I adore.)

Having super short hair.
But I'm still trying to grow it out a bit so I can have the crazy asymmetrical cut that I've been lusting after for months.
Then I will cut it short again.
And I know it will be the impulse to cut it all off in the dead of winter and my head will be cold and then I'll bitch about that.
Happens pretty much every year... totally predictable.
Ha.

lovelove.

OMG marry me.
♥♥

Happy Halloween my dears.
I have nothing going on tonight which makes me sad.
♥♥

Invisible Monsters

Read it.
It is amazing.
Truely.


lovelove.

If i put my hands around your wrists, would you fight them?

If I put my fingers in your mouth
Would you bite them?
So many things that I would do
If I had my way with you.
I can't keep secrets that I know
How you want me
You can tear your nails into my skin
You won't stop me
You can twist and scream into the air
But no one can hear you here

And there will be no tenderness
No tenderness
I will show no mercy for you
You have no mercy for me
The only thing that I ask
Love me mercilessly

All your shunning friends
that despise you to your face
What would they say now
If they saw you in this place?
Naked and breathless
Could you live with this disgrace?
Could you live, could you live,
Could you live with this?

I'm so fucking angry right now.
Amongst other things...
FUCK.

♥♥

♥ ♥

My fucking neck kills.
F that S.
I don't know much, except Sousa is hillarious and amazing.

lovelove.

Lucid...

My dreams are fucking strange lately.
I am definitely not sleeping well.
But hey guess what...


I HAVE A NEW PUP AT HOME NOW!
:D

I brought her home a week ago today, and she is amazing.
She will be 3 on the 29th of this month.
Her name is Sousa, and she's an American Staffordshire Terrier...
There are 2 strains of the pitbull, and she is the larger of them.
But she's a little girl for her breed.
Her personality makes up for her size.
And I couldn't be happier.
Seriously.
I'll definitely post some pictures soon, I've just been to busy this past week to get any that aren't on my phone.

lovelove.

Cherish your solitude.
Take trains by yourself.
Sleep alone under the stars.
Learn how to drive a stick shift.
Go so far away that you stop being afraid of not coming back.
Say no whenever you don't want to do something.
Say yes if your instincts are strong, even if everyone else disagrees.
Decide whether you want to be liked or admired.
Decide if fitting in is more important than finding out what you're doing here.
Believe in kissing.

-Eve Ensler

lovelove.

Love and happiness are never the same thing. They go hand in hand, but ultimately are seperate entities.

I'm basically a neglectful blog parent...
I just haven't felt like saying much of anything the last few months.
I've been trying to hide away from contact of all sorts.
I might be done now, but no promises.

Lets recap, shall we?

• I'm getting a new dog friend very soon... adopting from MARS, they've been wonderful and I'm fully approved as of yesterday. I'll start meeting dogs probably next week. STOKED!
• Dealt with a whole lot of fuckery concerning my student loans and such.
• Got in touch with someone I haven't talked to in years, and I'm glad I did.
• I finally am feeling like my life is falling into place and that things are gradually improving.
• Saw my bestie for a week, which was amazing. OBVIOUSLY.
• I'm slowly starting to get working on my sleeve, and could not be more pleased about it.
• Foxy and Storm are basically BFF now.
  
• Rediscovering some of my favorite books, again.
  
• Work has been fantastic... aside from the occasional assbags.
  

There is much more that I could say, but in the favor of discretion I will keep my mouth shut.

Next up... World domination.
BAHAHA.
But not really.
I'm definitely not that put together, yet.

Stay tuned, I've suddenly got more free time again.
More than likely, my psycho-babble will be resuming regularly.

lovelove.

Maybe I would've been something you'd be good at
Maybe you would've been something I'd be good at
Now we'll never know
(I won't be sad but in case I go there)
♥♥

Lets pretend that we rule the world...

♥♥

Zombie dreams...

Last night I had the craziest dream that there was a zombie apocalypse... and can I just say- it was a seriously convincing dream. It started out and was fun for a while, and then I wont even lie and say the typical "no, it wasnt scary, it was just a dream" bullshit, about halfway through the dream I became almost convinced that it was actually happening and it became pretty terrifying.
Mind you, I love some undead scary shit as much as the next person, but I come to find that when I am almost certain that its the real deal, it becomes considerably less fun. I eventually woke up in a wicked cold sweat, and had a terrible time sleeping the rest of the night (if we are being brutally honest here...)
And now tonight I cant sleep yet again and I find myself wondering if I might wake up again with my heart pounding so hard that I can hear it.
I always thought a zombie infestation would be interesting, but now I might just be starting to rethink my point of view on that one.

Either way, I definitely need more high powered firearms just in case of an emergency...

Hahaha... ridiculous.

Please read and abide by the above rules in case of zombie infestation.
Also, watch this movie.
It really is quite good.

And one more little tip- dont eat copious amounts of dairy before falling into a sleep coma, it will give you some fucked dreams. Or maybe thats just me...

Either way though, always remember the double tap.


lovelove.

Anxious

Cant sleep tonight.
Mind is buzzing.
Brain wont turn the fuck off.
Anxious for no apparent reason.
Tumblr is a major distraction.
Have to wake up early.
Weekend will be busy.
Just want to rest.
Want to draw.
Suck at making anything lately.
Shit clients all day today.
Hangnail bleeding.
Want cigarette.
Teeth already brushed.
(BOO HISS)

Typing in short form.

Cool life.

Sleep tight babies!

lovelove.

Lusty summer nights...

These have been some of my recent inspirations.
Enjoy.

lovelove.