Wednesday, December 08, 2010


I'm a busy girl lately, and I've been neglectful.
Of a lot of things.
I sincerely apologize...
To everyone who has been affected by this- including myself.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

You've got your lights turned so they can see you
The very best of what you've got to offer
Tell them what your hands were made for
Tell them who your mouth was made for

You've got your profits and your mathematicians
The vocal fuel of a generation
Tell me what my hands were made for
Tell me who my mouth was made for

And please don't be mad at me
You'll get what you ask for
Come on come on come on

So very close to what you had expected
It makes it hard to keep my head up level
Tell me I'm what your hands were made for
Tell me I'm who your mouth was made for

And if you come down on me
Well you'll get what you ask for
Come on come on come on

I, I want to get myself back
High, I want to get myself back.
Tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight.
And all of the things that you promised me that you'd be
now your hands are tired.
But I was nice, yeah I was nice, but I, I give my life
for one night, one night, one night.

I will not give up, I will not give up, I will not give up.
what do you know?

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

My life is spinning into some weird shit right.
Surprisingly its been fairly easy to stay calm and level headed recently.
Which is totally unlike myself.

I really want some sushi but there isn't anyone who will get some with me today...


Tuesday, November 09, 2010

I'm missing...

(artwork credit- Rik Lee... who's work I adore.)

Having super short hair.
But I'm still trying to grow it out a bit so I can have the crazy asymmetrical cut that I've been lusting after for months.
Then I will cut it short again.
And I know it will be the impulse to cut it all off in the dead of winter and my head will be cold and then I'll bitch about that.
Happens pretty much every year... totally predictable.


Monday, November 08, 2010

OMG marry me.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Happy Halloween my dears.
I have nothing going on tonight which makes me sad.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Invisible Monsters

Read it.
It is amazing.


Thursday, October 28, 2010

If i put my hands around your wrists, would you fight them?

If I put my fingers in your mouth
Would you bite them?
So many things that I would do
If I had my way with you.
I can't keep secrets that I know
How you want me
You can tear your nails into my skin
You won't stop me
You can twist and scream into the air
But no one can hear you here

And there will be no tenderness
No tenderness
I will show no mercy for you
You have no mercy for me
The only thing that I ask
Love me mercilessly

All your shunning friends
that despise you to your face
What would they say now
If they saw you in this place?
Naked and breathless
Could you live with this disgrace?
Could you live, could you live,
Could you live with this?

I'm so fucking angry right now.
Amongst other things...


Thursday, October 21, 2010

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

My fucking neck kills.
F that S.
I don't know much, except Sousa is hillarious and amazing.


Friday, October 15, 2010


My dreams are fucking strange lately.
I am definitely not sleeping well.
But hey guess what...


I brought her home a week ago today, and she is amazing.
She will be 3 on the 29th of this month.
Her name is Sousa, and she's an American Staffordshire Terrier...
There are 2 strains of the pitbull, and she is the larger of them.
But she's a little girl for her breed.
Her personality makes up for her size.
And I couldn't be happier.
I'll definitely post some pictures soon, I've just been to busy this past week to get any that aren't on my phone.


Friday, October 08, 2010

Cherish your solitude.
Take trains by yourself.
Sleep alone under the stars.
Learn how to drive a stick shift.
Go so far away that you stop being afraid of not coming back.
Say no whenever you don't want to do something.
Say yes if your instincts are strong, even if everyone else disagrees.
Decide whether you want to be liked or admired.
Decide if fitting in is more important than finding out what you're doing here.
Believe in kissing.

-Eve Ensler


Friday, October 01, 2010

Love and happiness are never the same thing. They go hand in hand, but ultimately are seperate entities.

I'm basically a neglectful blog parent...
I just haven't felt like saying much of anything the last few months.
I've been trying to hide away from contact of all sorts.
I might be done now, but no promises.

Lets recap, shall we?
  • I'm getting a new dog friend very soon... adopting from MARS, they've been wonderful and I'm fully approved as of yesterday. I'll start meeting dogs probably next week. STOKED!
  • Dealt with a whole lot of fuckery concerning my student loans and such.
  • Got in touch with someone I haven't talked to in years, and I'm glad I did.
  • I finally am feeling like my life is falling into place and that things are gradually improving.
  • Saw my bestie for a week, which was amazing. OBVIOUSLY.
  • I'm slowly starting to get working on my sleeve, and could not be more pleased about it.
  • Foxy and Storm are basically BFF now.
  • Rediscovering some of my favorite books, again.
  • Work has been fantastic... aside from the occasional assbags.
There is much more that I could say, but in the favor of discretion I will keep my mouth shut.

Next up... World domination.
But not really.
I'm definitely not that put together, yet.

Stay tuned, I've suddenly got more free time again.
More than likely, my psycho-babble will be resuming regularly.


Monday, June 28, 2010

Maybe I would've been something you'd be good at
Maybe you would've been something I'd be good at
Now we'll never know
(I won't be sad but in case I go there)

Friday, June 25, 2010

Lets pretend that we rule the world...


Sunday, June 13, 2010

Zombie dreams...

Last night I had the craziest dream that there was a zombie apocalypse... and can I just say- it was a seriously convincing dream. It started out and was fun for a while, and then I wont even lie and say the typical "no, it wasnt scary, it was just a dream" bullshit, about halfway through the dream I became almost convinced that it was actually happening and it became pretty terrifying.
Mind you, I love some undead scary shit as much as the next person, but I come to find that when I am almost certain that its the real deal, it becomes considerably less fun. I eventually woke up in a wicked cold sweat, and had a terrible time sleeping the rest of the night (if we are being brutally honest here...)
And now tonight I cant sleep yet again and I find myself wondering if I might wake up again with my heart pounding so hard that I can hear it.
I always thought a zombie infestation would be interesting, but now I might just be starting to rethink my point of view on that one.

Either way, I definitely need more high powered firearms just in case of an emergency...

Hahaha... ridiculous.

Please read and abide by the above rules in case of zombie infestation.
Also, watch this movie.
It really is quite good.

And one more little tip- dont eat copious amounts of dairy before falling into a sleep coma, it will give you some fucked dreams. Or maybe thats just me...

Either way though, always remember the double tap.


Friday, June 11, 2010


Cant sleep tonight.
Mind is buzzing.
Brain wont turn the fuck off.
Anxious for no apparent reason.
Tumblr is a major distraction.
Have to wake up early.
Weekend will be busy.
Just want to rest.
Want to draw.
Suck at making anything lately.
Shit clients all day today.
Hangnail bleeding.
Want cigarette.
Teeth already brushed.

Typing in short form.

Cool life.

Sleep tight babies!


Thursday, June 10, 2010

Lusty summer nights...

These have been some of my recent inspirations.



No, it's not what we meant to say.
We don’t really love each other.
What happens when the summer’s over? How long before distance becomes a chore? I'm approaching with great, great trepidation. I hope you’ll understand.

Before you speak think about what you're trying to say. Who else is there to blame for miscommunication? You're getting caught up in the excitement. You making promises you can’t keep. You need to leave all your options open.

Too much momentum. This room feels like it's going to explode.
Too many angles.
Too many factors to cover.
Waiting for signal.
You're searching for network.
You have to fight to stay in control of the situation.
Anxiety, Anxiety you give me no mercy.
Grind my teeth smooth and flat in my sleep.
We took some pills to calm us down. Then we needed help to come back up. Just trying to stay in control of the situation.

Too much momentum. This room feels like it's going to explode.
Too many angles.
Too many factors to cover.
Waiting for signal.
You're searching for network.
You have to fight to stay in control of the situation. They fall apart so easily.
Too much momentum. This room feels like it's going to explode.
Too many angles.
Too many factors to cover.
Waiting for signal.
You're searching for network.
You have to fight to stay in control. You have to fight to stay in control. No, you don’t have to fight to stay in control of the situation.

(AgainstMe! w/ Tegan Quin- borne on the fm waves of the heart)
I would have put the video up, but the embedded link to do so was disabled.
Go to youtube and watch it.

Also, please enjoy my screencap.

Feels like the story of my life.


Oh blog...

I apologize for being so neglectful as of late.
I have been busy and I could make excuses, but I wont. 
Truth be told, Ive just been slacking. 
Im sorry I can be terrible at keeping up with things sometimes.

New job, trips out of town, seeing friends, and general laziness are all to blame.

But hey- I fucking LOVE my new job. 
I feel like all of the passion I had for my career has come back in full force. 
I dont wake up and dread going to work anymore, which I must say is truly a big fucking deal.
Im so glad that I didnt settle for just any old job, and I that I worked my ass off to get this one.
Im glad that I passed up multiple other offers, and that I struggled financially in order to be able to take the job I have now.
It was SO hard for those short months that I was unemployed, but now that I am back in the saddle (so to speak) I dont think that I could be much more pleased.

Also, the next few weeks are going to be terribly busy for me, as I have multiple friends coming to town, people / family coming to stay with me (possibly), and some other fun plans that are all happening quite fast. 

As a generalization though, I must say that for the most part right now life is pretty good.
Next post will be things that have been inspiring to me lately!


Monday, May 03, 2010

Tired of...

Trying to be patient.
I just want to fucking know now...
Are you going to give me a job or no?
I really need to figure everything out.
I hate to be desperate about it, but its kind of important.
Will someone just make up their mind already?

Cheer me up?


Friday, April 30, 2010


Story of my life much?
Wasps love my bright blue house, and they love even more to harass me when Im outside doing anything. 
They arent bothersome to me until one divebombs my face.
Because well, thats just irritating- bad form you waspy bastard!
Going to take a shower now.

Thursday, April 29, 2010


Fucking yes- this made my day.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Monday, April 19, 2010


The night still confuses me
We'd all get tired and have to sleep eventually
Regardless of the sun's demands
Regardless if it made much sense
You moved so far that I, know how far 
And then you got so sad that I, I bought a car
Yes I'll come get you 
And I will bring you home
I'll come get you 
And I will bring you home...

The weekend was pretty good... 
Im pretty worn down now, or perhaps rather- I feel terribly burnt out.


It happens.

Goddamn I hope I find a job soon... a good one that is.
I get so bored when Im not working, and I think I start to lose it.



Thursday, April 15, 2010

I need you so much closer... 



Cats are amazing.
Also amazing- how to train your dragon (imax 3D bitches!)
SO SO SO effing cute i could just die.
Totally gonna buy it when it comes out, and I dont remember the last time i thought that about an animated movie.
Go see it.


Thursday, April 08, 2010

Wednesday, April 07, 2010


As of this last two weeks, I have been craving salad... pretty much every day.
And then I make salad, and still want more then next day, even a few hours later.
Spring does that to me I think- I just crave fresh food. 
It feels amazing.
Now Tonz wants to start P90X(ing) together and get super fit.
And I like that idea very much.
Also, its a lazy day... again.
I need a shower, but Im procrastinating. 
I thought not.




Monday, April 05, 2010

I got so, city girl on you...

Ive had a few job possibilities popping up, which is terribly exciting!
More info on that soon... 
Just figured everyone should know that Im still alive.
Slept super late today.
Had a headache.
Easter/ yesterday in general wore me out.

I want to go see the Runaways so bad.
I might just go alone.


Wednesday, March 31, 2010


How about you and me go get wasted?


Tuesday, March 30, 2010

I just finished...

Doing an application online. 
It took an hour.
There was pretty much 745389283106 questions, some of which were repeated. 
I am almost certain that I was being analyzed to be deemed fit to work there...
With a psych evaluation.
The worst part?
I could only answer in the fill in the bubble format.
Oh well.
Hopefully something good could come of it.
(Lol- ridiculous.)
Anywho... Ive spent the day applying for jobs and walking my butt off.
Then I got a coffee. 
Now I am cuddling with my kitty and trying to warm my feet up.

It is beautiful outside.
This is the first March in a hundred years apparently that it hasnt snowed in MN. 
And funny thing... everyone in the state goes nuts when it hits like, 50 degrees.
Prolly because theres only (basically) 3 months of warm weather all year.
But Im not complaining... in fact, who says that global warming is a bad thing?


Monday, March 29, 2010

Fuck money...

Fuck it with something hard and sandpapery.
Unless someone wants to give me a really large sum of money, then money and myself could be pals.
Its close to 60 degrees out... its March.
That is amazing for Minnesota.


Sunday, March 28, 2010

You make me feel like my insides are dying slowly...

Home from D-Town now.
Trying to make Forest and Foxy be friends.
Drinking some cider.
Waiting to hear back from my cousin.
Its a beautiful day, maybe I will take the pup for a walk...

Wednesday, March 24, 2010


I adore this more than you can possibly know.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010


Yes, again I have a headache- every day the last 2 weeks.
And for some reason, it seems only on the days that I feel like staying around home (wearing leggings as pants- SHAME -with a hood over my head, and my glasses on) doing nothing, are the days that people want to do things.
I say eff that s.
Just wish that I didnt feel like hell at the start of spring every year.
It makes it hard to enjoy the beautiful weather.
Boo hiss.


Monday, March 22, 2010

Dark, you cant come soon enough, for me...

Thus far today Ive already smoked too many cigarettes, drank a redbull, and ate a piece of cheesecake for breakfast.
Yum yum.
Now Im coloring my hair, well waiting for it to process.
Listening to Tegan and Sara, trying to figure out how I am going to go to the show, if I can.
Picking out clothes for the day.
And creeping around on tumblr. 


Sunday, March 21, 2010

I just...

Applied to fucking Great Clips.
I justify it because I would love to make like... $12/hr + commission. 
After all- I want that Alexander McQueen sweater I saw and fell in love with the other day.
(I know that I want it, because I'm still thinking about it...)
So that is that.

...Dont judge me.


Saturday, March 20, 2010


I want some crispy green bean fries dammit.
A cigarette or ten would be nice as well.
I bought new sunglasses today, because I have a problem.
They are granny fabulous.



Thursday, March 18, 2010

And you should probably know...

There are hair-nets all over on the ground outside of my house.
On the sidewalks, under car wheels, in the neighbors foliage, and stuck in the fence across the road.
By far the strangest thing that I have seen in a while.
I mean really... who just throws 5478o1754831 lunch lady style hair-nets all over the place?
How does that even happen?


True that...


Got my new phone covers in the mail today- yay!
Black and clear all the way. I think I like the black one better.
They are made of silicone I guess, and sort of feel like weird, soft, rubbery skin. 
That sounded gross, apologies.


Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Oh and...

Lastly for now- please excuse the fact that for some reason my last two video posts wont center, so they look all off kilter with the rest of the blog.
(Insert exasperated sigh here.)

Im a free bitch...

Also, will someone buy me everything she is wearing in this video PUH-LEASEEEE!?
(Including the wigs, but specifically the black crown style hat she is wearing while she looks in the mirror.)
That is all thanks.
This is amazing.
For serious.
Florence and the Machine will always remind me of one person in particular... this song more than any other. 
But so you know, there isnt anyone that I would prefer to associate with it anyway.


Today will be...

And more than likely productive.

It's good to have things to look forward to.
For sure.

My washer and dryer suck because the washer doesnt drain 100% all the time, and the dryer needs to be run like 3 times to get things dry.
Which has really become a pain in my ass, literally- going up and down 3 flights of stairs constantly is just annoying, and hurts my tailbone.
Is that weird?
Oh well... 
One of these days I swear Im going to go down there and be mauled by the spiders hanging off of everything and I will be just another dead person that is (we are pretty sure...) hiding in the walls of the basement.
(It could happen!)
What are you going to do, right?