It feels like I have been away so long, but in reality, it has only been a brief period.
Sometimes life throws you curves that you just can't see coming. That really just is the way that it goes. People, feelings, times change. And really, you can't get too thrown off by it, lest it turn you into a pile of weirdness. And speaking from the experiences I have had over the last week, feeling like a pile of yucky weird is just no good.
As said by Marilyn Monroe:
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
This has been the train of thought keeping me together the last week, and it really does help somehow. It really feels like everything leading up to today has been the kick in the ass that I have needed.
Life is hard.
That is just the way it is.
I personally do not believe that everyone and everything is inherently good, "good" is a decision.
This could be a misguided train of thought, but truly, it all comes down to people making decisions for themselves. We all control ourselves, or at the least, we control our actions, and that is something that can never be taken away.
So when life throws you something like a proverbial slap in the face, take it with a grain of salt. Conduct yourself however feels appropriately, and attempt to maintain your dignity as best you can.
Be bold and speak your mind.
This is where I am at this moment in time.
Life is what you make of it, and sometimes it is very painful and unpleasant to deal with.
Only do something if it agrees with your own sense of reason.
"I keep a close eye on my pets, because they make most of their moves off of instinct and sense.
Its eat, sleep, fuck, in self-defense so straight you can set your clocks and place bets..."
(Atmosphere- Trying to find a balance)